Thursday, February 18, 2010
Silence is Golden
Why is silence so uncomfortable? I am finding resolution #3 (spend a 24 hour period in complete silence) very frightening. It is the only one of my resolutions I have not worked on yet. How often do we really experience silence-especially in our own homes? How many daily moments do we spend without musical or television background noise, cell phones ringing, kids talking, car horns honking, and the neighbors dogs barking? My answer is zero. Tonight John is out with the boys racing and the kids have been put to bed. With no TV and no radio on (I don’t want to wake the kids), I am finding myself jumping at the very sound of the icemaker. When I stop typing the quiet is too much. So I got to thinking of my pending day of silence. When I wrote that goal, I hadn’t really given it much thought. Do I want 24 hours of silence around me, or do I want to be around noise and I have to remain silent? The reasoning behind this resolution is because my mouth is constantly getting me in trouble. I am always saying to much. I don‘t listen, I wait to talk, and sometimes I don‘t even wait. So I guess that answers one of my questions. My 24 hours of silence will be me keeping my big mouth shut with the world talking around me (maybe next year I will attempt a day without sound around me). So how do I do this? I have to do it on a weekend because I would get fired if I didn’t talk at work, but how will my kids react? Belle might understand and I can write her notes but Garrett won’t understand he is still too little and might think that I am ignoring him. If I do a day of silence without my family, that kind of negates the purpose of my little experiment. I want to NOT talk when things are going on around me, I want to watch and listen. Any ideas/thoughts on how I am going to pull this off?